Saturday, August 19, 2006
"You sit there in your heartache Waiting on some beautiful boy to To save you from your old ways You play forgiveness Watch it now - here he comes He doesn't look a thing like Jesus But he talks like a gentlemen Like you imagined when you were young."
-The killers:When you were young
I awoke today to a plague of questions on my would-be love life by my brother's best friend.
Him:"Hey."
Me:"Hey. My brother's not home."
Him:"That's okay I called to talk to you....."
Me: *thinking: Am i still sleeping? This is creeepy but kind of cute...but creepy* haha...ha.
Him: "So how's work? Have any stalkers?"
Me: "Sort of, but they tip more than their drinks cost so it's not so bad."
Him: "So...."
Me: "Soooo...I'll talk to you la-"
Him: "Why don't you have a boyfriend?"
Me: "Well,I'm a busy girl."
Him: "Ya, but you should make time for love in your life."
Me: *is still half awake* "Yuh huh....Sooo i'll tell my brother you called then?"
Him: "Whatever."
Me: "Ciao."
Him: "Later cutie."
I could have handled that alot better had I not just been woken up by the ringing of the phone. I edited out some of the small talk because it makes me sound like an idiot and it's irrelevent to the main text of what transpired.
Alot of people have asked me why I'm single. I guess it's flattering to presume that if i wanted someone there are plenty of fish in the sea who wouldn't mind getting hooked on me. The fact that i've only really liked 2 guys in my entire life seems ridiculous seeing as my friends have different crushes each week.
Not to say i haven't eye fucked my share of pretty men, but
I need the
Sza Sza Szu. Brought to us my sex in the city the term
Sza Sza Szu describes that feeling you get when you see that special person also known as butterflies, nung and lust filled love at first sight.
Whatever you call it I think it is a must have to start any relationship. The first person i felt this insane attraction to was in grade 9. He later came to the conflusion that I was just too young(Like i said I was in grade 9 and he was in grade 11), but not before I fell hard for him. Needless to say mine wittle virgin heart got shattered somewhere along the way and it took me 2 years to recover. During the recovery process I became a tad bitter and cynical.
Now fastforward to the present. I have the Sza Sza Szu r
eaaal bad for the absolute worst person (He is a jerk
AND he had a girlfriend!). And besides i'm scarred from my last leap of love and am in no rush to get hurt again...and besides believe it or not I
am actually a busy girl! Or I will be once school starts.
But should I really make time for love in my life? It's a dangerous business this heart stuff. All I know is I like how he makes me
feel. But I've always been proud of the fact that I don't neeed a man. But then there's these moments where I look at him...and I wish he were mine and more importantly that I was his.
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