Saturday, September 09, 2006
"From doorway to doorway Street corner to corner With the neon ghosts in the city And she says Stay with me Stay with me
Stay with me."
-INXS:Beautiful girl
I don't know exactly when (or where-hey i was really really messed up kay?) it happened but somewhere between the mixture of multiple shots of vodka and redbull i had last night, followed by my first
jamaican shower ever it hit me.
I'm a beautiful mess.
Now this is not something new ofcourse, simply something that i've been trying to overcome lately that just became all that much more clear while I was higher than a fucking kite last night.
I don't remember much except for the few finer nonsensical moments that resulted into a very special kind of stupid (and isn't that the way it should always be?)
The night consisted mostly of quotes like :"Bus Sluts!" "Everything that comes out of his mouth is like sex poetry!" "So the other day I was between two italians..." and oh so much more.
...and it all took place at Mark's apartment downtown. I realized last night that I really really can't picture him in any romantic setting whatsoever. Which
really is too bad because
a) He's loaded(He has his own apartment-HELLO. and he owns a loft in the old port<3>and he has just about
the cutest kitty cat in the entire world which would usually be the cherry on top of my I-Want-to-marry-him sunday. But alas he just doesn't make me laugh.
Yes you heard it hear first guys: A sense of humor wins against loads of cash and incredible good looks. It's true!
Sure he's going to take his lover to Cuba for new years and he smells like an entire field of sexflowers but can he make me pee my pants from laughter? Unfortunately not. Oh and then there's also the fact that he's slept with a good deal of my close casuals that slightly hinder his chances of being the object of my undying affection.
Well I guess it's not a complete tragedy though. He really is a great guy(as far as guys go...really you can't have high standards with men) and i'm hoping his offer to let me have full reign of his apartment isn't circumstantial to me doing ....well doing him.
4:34 PM
