Sunday, October 29, 2006
"On the count of you im guilty
I'm not even surprised if you wanna leave
You're telling me you're heart feels empty
I cant commit to you right now but
In time one day you're gonna be mine..."-Lil Eddie: Save a little love
So i may or may not have already mentioned this...but my yoga instrutor says things like "Smile on the inside.." and "Projection of love." Throughout the yoga session. So while i'm in downward dog position not only am I trying my best to elongate my neck and keep my upper body aligned I'm also biting myself to keep from collapsing and laughing my ass off.
He actually said "Be a mountain." Now that was funny enough...but he just had to take it further"What does it mean to be mountain?" The entire room was silent everyone is in full meditation and I'm just thinking dear lord do not let me show how immature I really am to this room full of strangers..atleast not until I've won them over with my flexibility, punctualitity and general spunk for life.
Moving on I'd like to take a moment in this entry to congratulate myself *pat pat* for completeing a week of painful workouts, and going to bed at a reasonable hour and drinking alot of water.
BUT I still need to work on eating better. I'm getting into the habit of having a protein suppliment which makes me feel like a million dollars. The only turn off is having your friend seeing you with said suppliment and saying "Oh! My grandpa drinks that stuff!" X___x
But because i'm such a busy girl I need some kind of meal supplement or I'll burn out!
Have I mentioned I haven't had a cigarette in like two fucking weeks? Friday was especially hard because while I was waiting to catch the bus, there was someone on either side of me smoking! I was seconds away from shouting either "Gimme that!" or "Get away from meee!"
I can honestly say this week has been a challenge-but fun all the same. My cute locker neighbor boy goes to the same gym as me and I say him friday night-made my day. Had my french oral-i survived! Finished most of my homework...didn't party it up like I usually do. Held it together around a friend's ex, when deep down I wanted to tear him apart-slowly.
Oh? and My friday night date? Ya...didn't happen. (ofcourse...) i cancelled, because I'm just not ready to flaunt my stuff just yet, and to be honest I really wasn't all that into the guy. Harsh but honest. but mostly it's because I just don't feel i'm ready to let someone else love me.
"I have a daily religeon that works for me. Love yourself first and everything else fall into place. You really have to love yourself to get anything done in this world."-Lucille Ball
Too true.
I have to work on loving myself before i let anyone else in.
And I need money.
And in order to get money I need a job.
I can't count how many times I wished I could get paid for just being because really life is a full time job.
I really need to go more blonde. I'm thinking Kim Catrall, Scarlet Johanson blonde.
and I need new shoes...and clothes...and is it wrong to ask only for cold hard cash for Christmas?
Anyway I'm putting the opening theme for sex and the city as my morning alarm. Genius i know. Fabulous even more so.
10:40 AM
