Saturday, November 04, 2006

"Show me what you got lil mama
Show me what you got lil lady
Show me what you got shawty
Show me what you got baby."
-Jay Z:Show me what you got
I should join the armed forces seeing as I'm so good at sabotage.
Seriously I just sabotaged my entire saturday by eating chocolate and drinking caffeine and SMOKING A FUCKING CIGARETTE.
What is wrong with me? I have such high hopes and expectations and I seem to always let myself down.
Any smoker can feel my pain and understand when i say-it just feels so nice to finally have one those cancer sticks.
I can't keep doing this to myself you know? Making promises to myself that things are going to change and then...going back to my old dirty habits. It's not healthy for meeeeee.
I've kept up my workout for two weeks now. So I owe it to myself to finish this thing. I can do it.
Third time is the charm.
10:18 AM