Tuesday, November 07, 2006
"Now its fall and your shoulders get tighter
nervous flicks on your lighter...boots
your pissed off poets
your women's groups
and the friends with you we should've known this fool
well i guess we missed the mark,still my fingers catch the sparks
at the thought of them touching you when your wounded."
-Third eye blind:Wounded
Stayed at a friend's last night. We are such dorks when we're together. She had just broken up with her boyfriend of a billion years and stuff like that is pretty rough on a girl and I was there to be supportive things like "He's such a jerk!" and "You can do soooo much better!" for about 5 hours. (seemed much longer)
You would think that hearing about her breakup/down would make me think twice before putting myself out there, but really it made me think about being in a relationship.
Having someone to go to and just hold you, seems pretty nice doesn't it? Having someone to cuddle with and hold hands with...and just be yourself around. Someone to just
be with, you know? It's cute.
Part of me really wants that, while other parts make of me think i don't deserve that kind of simple love. I guess I can't see someone just wanting to be with me and only me. I think I have to make myself a better person before I can even let myself be loved or show love.
I hate to think that I'm waiting for someone to come around and see me as their hidden gem. I guess as much as I hate to admit it I still hold out for something 'special'. True love.
Anyway the little updates on my day to day life would be as follows: I went to yoga again today. The "What does it mean to be a mountain?" thing is officially old but still alive and well (unfortunately). I now take the train to school! I walk about 30 minutes to the train station! I haven't had a window seat yet, but one day oh one day!
I've been uber bitch to people lately-i think it's because my body is not used to this healthy eating thing i've got going on. I sleep better since I've started but I feel like my hair and complexion do not have that healthy glow thing going on anymore. Oh well.
I haven't been doing any homework lately. Le slack effect is what I call it. It's like when I have one area of my life going well (health and fitness) all the other areas (social life, makeup, school) suffer, or atleast take the back seat.
My parents are leaving for sombrero land tomorrow (Mexico) ;___; I am actually sad. I feel that their leaving is all too sudden. They'll be gone for a month (and no i wont be having any parties because I am simply not that cool.) they'll be back by the time my first semestre of cegep is over and done with.
I hope I pass everything.....>>'
Anyway in the midst of the chaos that is my life I sometimes take a time out to appreciate something that makes me smile, and today that something would be
wongfu productions' Yellow Fever.Enjoy.
ps:
I like cute asian boys.
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