Thursday, November 02, 2006


"Am I not pretty enough
Is my heart too broken? Do I cry too much?
Am I too outspoken?
Don't I make you laugh?
Should I try it harder?
Why do you see right through me?
I live I breathe I let it rain on me
I sleep I wake I try hard not to break
I crave I loveI've waited long enough
I laugh I feel I make believe it's real
I fall I freeze I pray down on my knees
I hopeI stand,I take it like a man
I try as hard as I can."
-Kasey Chambers:Not pretty enough

You know how I go on and on about how I'm going to be fabulous? (what this blog is all about...*cough* cough*) Well. I'm serious. By new years I'm going to be fabulous.

I am working really hard here people. Going to the gym 5 times a week isn't something I find specifically pleasant. Eating nothing but vegetables, lowfat yogourt, fish, tuna, protein supplements and some fruit like grapefruit sure isn't what I would call easy.

I want to lose 40 pounds.

I need to be 110 pounds. If i don't do this now, it's going to be that much harder later. For the first time I realise i won't be doing it for anyone but myself.

This is for me.

I am going to lose 20 pounds by new years (in 2 months). And you might be saying to yourself nooooo do not bend to society's twisted ideals of beauty! You are beautiful just the way you are!" But what you don't know is I was once..110 pounds. Sooo technically I will be just as pretty just the way I was? o.O Confused? So am i.

Anyway I am going to be keeping track of my progress and my daily fitness regime in more detail on another blog because I know how boring it can be to have to read a page on how sore my ass is from doing lunges or how i'd have sex with just about anyone for a chocolate almond. Actually the latter will probably be mentioned quite alot, just because I know how prostitution and chocolate tend to make people smile.

Unfortunately my day held no prospects for prostitution (alliteration and i obviously very close) but I did indulge in el chocolato. But that won't be happening again for the next 5 months or so. =( Withdrawals galore.

And so the countdown to 130 pounds begins tomorrow. 59 days.

My ass is sore already.

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